Internal Suffering

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I feel lost right now. I know I need to get my school projects done, the semester is almost over, and I just can’t concentrate. Whenever I get a good idea I try it out and instantly I don’t like it and I can’t come up with anything else good. Not only that but my body just doesn’t wanna cooperate with me. I pulled a muscle in my dominant arm the other day, yesterday I could barely breathe, and now my back is giving me trouble. I haven’t been to school in WEEKS because my body just won’t allow it. I’m getting sinus headaches now, and it stings and burns like hell. I’m so congested some days that I just wanna stick my head in warm water and leave it there, just to get some relief. Nowadays it even hurts to blow my nose, not to mention multiple sinus infections where I blow out congealed blood…For a while blowing my nose and finding blood was NORMAL. When I sneeze and cough my body aches, and because I barely get any relief, it tires me out. I never have energy to do anything anymore. I know I need to go to the doctor but I’m scared. I’m scared its gonna be something really bad and I can’t stand to have anything else wrong with me. My mom noticed that my eyes have gotten darker, because I keep rubbing them. She has bad allergies like I do, and as it turns out she’s just about allergic to everything airborne. I have it much worse than she does though. Even my grandfather, who I believe had minor allergies before I did, doesn’t have it as bad as I do. For me, its everyday, everywhere, all the time. I can’t take too much allergy medicine because it has warnings against that, and because I’ll become immune to it like I had with aspirin in the past with my everyday migraines…..My body is putting me through hell and its affecting me mentally as well as physically. I can’t even do what I love to do because I’m just too tired or suffering or can’t breathe or even in pain to do it…A month ago, I almost fainted in front of a friend from class, and I fell asleep in school waiting for my aunt to pick me up because I didn’t feel like I would be able to make it home if I tried. I would NEVER fall asleep somewhere unfamiliar to me.It was only for about 25 minutes but that is alarming to me. I was high and low, and my cousin looked up my symptoms and said that I was suffering from IRON DEFICIENCY. My mom suffers from it as well, which explained why I get cold so easily and why I have instances where my nails will turn bluish purple. I need help, but I’m afraid to get it.
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Kuma007's avatar
For iron deficency you need to eat more red meat or take a iron pill i use to have iron defencey too but i has advice to take a iron pill or eat more red meat. It suck that you have alot of allergy :(